okay...I am here to talk about some things. With regards to one of my entry about what happened at work, I've received an indirect reply from someone's blog.

I just got to say...I was rather shocked, cause the person who actually responded to that entry was someone I really wasn't referring to at all.

And I've nothing against the things I mentioned in the previous entry, I'm just a small fry and not the one who gives out salary to the people so it doesn't really matter to me what people do. What I meant in the entry was that one should practise what he preach. If they expect people to not so and so, then they themselves should not so and so. I've no idea who is the one or the ones who have been stabbing us from the back, but what I see was people doing the so and so that we were complained about. So i was just typing the entry as a general issue, of course, with some suspects that my team has came up with.

We admit that we are really free at times when we finished our work and did some net surfing or chatting. but ever since we received our first complaint, we started helping out with housekeeping so that the perms do not have to stay back even later after they complete their work. We've already stopped our nonsense and are really serious about gaining trust back from those who have lost their faith in us.

And finally, I have no intentions of getting involved in the politics. My blog entry was typed out of exasperation cause we are condemned and under scrutiny because of the past events despite our attempts to live up to the standard. And also, I've never mentioned that whoever is free before. I quote, "I believe everyone has equal workload". I am not saying on the level of temps and perms, there's obviously a difference cause we are inexperienced and cannot handle the tougher cases. I am saying on the level of the perms cause the perm in my team often get targeted too.

So i clarify once again, the previous entry was really not aimed at anyone in particular, more so not aimed at the one who responded to it. And that's the end of the whole thing, I don't wish to affect myself or anyone's personal life with office work.

Goodnight.

Sent my soldier in yesterday. It's never easy to say goodbye all the time and things are really going to be different. Everything around me seem to be reminding me of his absence and I really had a hard time coping with the change yesterday. But I believe with a little more time, courage and support from each other, we can adapt to the brand new life.

Since yesterday, I've been very tempted to tell my parents about him but I am very sure they will object. Especially when he is in army now. My parents expect me to get a financially stable man, in other words, a man who's already working. It's not that I don't know where they are coming from, which parents wouldn't want the best for their kid? In parents' opinions, we are all young ignorant kids who know nuts about love. Yes of course I know I am still young and immature and may know nuts about it, but at least I know when someone is treating me well from the bottom of his heart. Even if the relationship does not take off far, at least I did ever try to maintain it. I feel that every relationship is a precious lesson learnt and it doesn't hurt to entrust my heart to someone whom I think is capable of guarding it as long as I am discerning and love myself enough.

I've observed long enough before making a decision. I've met guys older than me and supposedly, better partners than him in my parents' opinions. But I don't see them being more capable of taking care of me and being more serious about relationships. This is what I mean by there is no standard qualities that my parents should expect from my boyfriend.

Yes love cannot put bread on the table. But is a guy who can do so yet cannot take care of me psychologically going to make my life any better or easier? It's not like I am or going to be financially dependent on my boyfriend. I strongly believe in staying financially independent even after marriage cause we're really living in an age of uncertainty. And I don't need a life of luxury and a shake-legs life. Wouldn't that put my 12 years of education and counting on to waste?

My parents are those who feel that even 22 years old is TOO young to get involved, what more a 19 year old teen. It's gonna cause a quarrel but I rather that to happen now than to hide things from them and do things sneakily. So should I or should I not tell my parents about it?